Tuesday, October 26, 2010

STRESSED !!


i have never been so stressed and out of time as i have been this semester

my time management skills have hit an all time low,
 i barely find time to eat,
 my hair care regimen is allllll the way off schedule, i'm constantly doing things at the last minute, 
i'm up ALLLL hours of the freaking night 
i have nooooo time for myself EVER !!
i've been so concerned about what everybody else is doing and not concerned enough about LESLEY 

i'm going to a yoga class tomorrow to try and relax
i'm also going to go grocery shopping for breakfast foods so that i can pay better attention in class

i've gotta get my life back on track.. smh 


i'm talking to my mommy right now and she made me feel much better, she told me that i need to take time out for myself so that i can focus more on Lesley and get everything done that i need to get done.  

wish me luck..

EPIC


Diggy Simons x Willow Smith 

idk art but i know what i like



no particular reason for this post, i just came across this when i was surfing tumblr and i couldn't stop staring.  anywho, enjoy!

"instead, i rose from the ash like a Phoenix"

Kanye West debuted his new short film Runaway on MTV Saturday evening. i missed the beginning of the film but u can certainly bet that i found it online and watched the whole thing in its entirety!! 
i was nothing short of speechless
while watching the video i realized that the songs and scenes were all a part in Kanye's life that had impacted him in one way or another.  it isn't exactly in chronological order but i am a SERIOUS Kanye fanatic!! so i caught most of the imagery.  

the film opens up with Kanye frantically running from a fire in the distance.. i got this to symbolize him running from his past, his mother's death, the taylor swift incident, his break up with Alexis Fifer and amber Rose, his old style of music, and his old ways.  



as he drives up this long winding road (life) he gets hit with the Phoenix and rescues her




the Phoenix roams around in his backyard as if to be reborn



he shows her etiquette and coaxes her on how to be a civil person in society much like he had to coax himself and humble himself after the downfall of his career


the dinner scene, the man next to Kanye asks him if he notices that his girlfriend is a "bird" .. i took that as when he was dating Amber Rose and everybody kept calling her a video hoe and a whore like he didn't know about her past.  i thought that was an interesting tidbit in the film 


he then goes on to perform one of his latest hit singles Runaway Love with an epic ballet performance .. the song Runaway Love made me think about how he realized his mistakes and how he doesn't want to bring anyone down with him.  he wants "her" to runaway from him as fast as she can.  
he also adresses all of the "Douche bags" and "a**holes" that he surrounded himself with that he believed were his friends (people at the table)






this was a scene that went over my head until i watched it a few times.  the dinner begins after Kanye's performance and they're decorating the table with various different foods.  the main course was a turkey, which the Phoenix identified with as one of her own, she began screaming in terror and disgust and everyone left the table leaving Kanye with the screeching Phoenix and the dead bird.  
the dead bird represented his mother, the late Donda West and the Phoenix's screech was his 4th album 808s and Heartbreaks which, though it went gold, was his worst selling album.  the people running away from the table represented the masses that hated the album. thus leaving Kanye alone with his own thoughts and the reality of the death of his mother staring him in the face. 






















after the Phoenix and Kanye talk about the things that went on, she decides that in order for her to go back to normal, she must burn.  Kanye doesnt want her to go but he knows that she has to.  much like his career, he had to look inside of himself and decide that it was time for him to start over and rise from the ashes.  
after she burns it leaves the "new" Kanye West alone, risen from the ashes 


i thought that this concept was freaking GENIUS !! aside from the fact that i am in love with everything that Kanye does, he is truly an artist and a visionary.  he is an artist in every aspect of the word and i will be buying 4 copies of My Beautiful Dark Twisted Fantasy along with the other artists on his label G.O.O.D. Music that will be dropping their albums around the same time.  
i'm soooooo glad that Kanye is back and in full effect because i was really afraid for him.  

but i knew that this was going to happen, after the whole taylor swift nonsense threatened to ruin his career, he rose from the ashes just like a Phoenix.  

Sunday, October 17, 2010

SHEEEEESH !!

i just had one hell of a time trying to log into this dang thing !! everytime i would log in it would sign me into my old blog with my google account and ughhh, it was a headache.  anywho, back to the program.. gonna do a little construction and landscaping and be back with a better blog =D 

i want to explain why the blog is named as such, first.
i love love LOVE peacocks. LOVE THEM!! they are my favorite animal (next to giraffes) and i want a pet baby peacock that i will name Tyson.
i also have a large peacock feather tattooed on my left shoulder that i want to get a little bit brighter but i love nonetheless !!
over the last month or so, i've decided to start wearing my hair i its natural state.  my hair is a little bush of spiral curls and i want to learn to embrace them =]

this is a blog about things that i love and things that make me happy.  i've been really negative lately and i want to start doing the things that make ME happy and no one else.

with that said, enjoy my curly peacock. 

bbl