MorganView !!!!!!!

i plan on writing a very strongly worded letter to morgan state and the resident directors of morganview apartments. for the UMPTEENTH TIME, my internet has been revoked due to false accusations that i have destiny's child - 8 days of christmas and a led zeplin song, andddddd a savage garden song. *c'mon son* .. i have homework that REQUIRES INTERNET DAMN ACCESS and i don't have time for this!! 

needless to say, none of this is even on my computer. 

i was laughed at when i told the man that i bought an airport and my room was wifi compatible because it's two thousand %$@#&*( ten

i was called a liar

and i cannot use my $2000 computer. 

WHAT UNIVERSITY DOES THIS !!!!! 

how am i supposed to frequently update my blog, do two research papers, a radio production project and show, successfully email my teachers and my homework, and be AT ALL successful in school without internet access???

unfortunately i am using a friend's computer so i can't go in like i want to but UGHHHHHHHHHHHH!!!!!!!!

THEY'RE TAKING THIS TOO FAR, I'M STRESSED, IRKED, AND I WANT SOME DAMN COLLARD GREENS. 

2011 cannot come soon enough. 

%&$#@%# AMPED !!

real fans cop early!

needless to say. this will be played in my vehicle for the next til New Years. 

Today:

 

grunge works for me : ]






p.s. pardon my mess of a room :(

jealousy.

Jealousy = envy
Jealousy = obsession 
Jealousy = caring 
Jealousy = flattery
Jealousy = love 
Jealousy = abuse
The second one denounces jealousy as the inevitable aspect of a relationship that it is, they give up on the relationship. However, jealousy can also be the demise of a relationship. One can be jealous without being abusive verbally or physically. 
Jealousy gives reaction; it shows that the person is not one sided in the relationship.. It shows that they don't want to lose you. A negative reaction would be constant arguments or abusive actions which show that that person is toxic in your life anyway whether you are the victim or the abuser. No one should bring out such rage in you.  
Jealousy = flattery. It may truly be the sincerest form of flattery. To know that someone feels threatened by the mere thought of losing you is breathtaking. 
Jealousy = love when you fear for losing them because they're either a) not showing you jealousy back or b) exhibiting behavior that would lend one to jealous tendencies.
Jealousy is healthy in the sense that it pushes you to get to a point that you're no longer jealous; to a point where those you were once envious of are now in your shoes. 
My jealousy is out of pure Love. Maybe I'm jealous because he doesn't get jealous or because he doesn't have to or choose to be as inquisitive as I. Who knows, but any relationship worth having is going to have some level of jealousy. Regardless. 
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i sat in bed last night and typed this.  the words just seemed to flow right out of my head like it had been lingering on my chest for some time.  and it ultimately made me realize this, I AM A JEALOUS PERSON. and i am okay with that. 

a lot of men equate jealousy with femininity and then make it out to be a horrible aspect that they do not look for in a mate, YET, how would the pseudo masculine male that consumes our planet deal with a female that merely wants him but does not need him.   

THEY LOSE IT !! that's what happens.  

ladies, try using the gentleman/men in your life as toys.  you won't be able to stop your phone from ringing or the texts from incoming.  the thing is, MEN HATE TO BE IGNORED, they love to be needed and they love to be able to tell us "chill baby, fall back. you on my neck baby girl" thus causing them to deem us needy, THUS causing us to be jealous because now we feel as though we "need" him.  

it's all politics, and it's a shame.  

typical night in 404D

and this is how my homework gets done. 

disclaimer: i'm 21. 

STRESSED !!

i have never been so stressed and out of time as i have been this semester

my time management skills have hit an all time low,

 i barely find time to eat,

 my hair care regimen is allllll the way off schedule, i'm constantly doing things at the last minute, 

i'm up ALLLL hours of the freaking night 

i have nooooo time for myself EVER !!

i've been so concerned about what everybody else is doing and not concerned enough about LESLEY 

i'm going to a yoga class tomorrow to try and relax

i'm also going to go grocery shopping for breakfast foods so that i can pay better attention in class

i've gotta get my life back on track.. smh 

i'm talking to my mommy right now and she made me feel much better, she told me that i need to take time out for myself so that i can focus more on Lesley and get everything done that i need to get done.  

wish me luck..

EPIC

Diggy Simons x Willow Smith