Tuesday, November 23, 2010

MorganView !!!!!!!

i plan on writing a very strongly worded letter to morgan state and the resident directors of morganview apartments. for the UMPTEENTH TIME, my internet has been revoked due to false accusations that i have destiny's child - 8 days of christmas and a led zeplin song, andddddd a savage garden song. *c'mon son* .. i have homework that REQUIRES INTERNET DAMN ACCESS and i don't have time for this!! 

needless to say, none of this is even on my computer. 
i was laughed at when i told the man that i bought an airport and my room was wifi compatible because it's two thousand %$@#&*( ten
i was called a liar
and i cannot use my $2000 computer. 

WHAT UNIVERSITY DOES THIS !!!!! 

how am i supposed to frequently update my blog, do two research papers, a radio production project and show, successfully email my teachers and my homework, and be AT ALL successful in school without internet access???

unfortunately i am using a friend's computer so i can't go in like i want to but UGHHHHHHHHHHHH!!!!!!!!

THEY'RE TAKING THIS TOO FAR, I'M STRESSED, IRKED, AND I WANT SOME DAMN COLLARD GREENS. 

2011 cannot come soon enough. 


Friday, November 19, 2010

%&$#@%# AMPED !!

real fans cop early!



needless to say. this will be played in my vehicle for the next til New Years. 

Tuesday, November 9, 2010

Today:

 
grunge works for me : ]






p.s. pardon my mess of a room :(

jealousy.

Jealousy = envy
Jealousy = obsession 
Jealousy = caring 
Jealousy = flattery
Jealousy = love 
Jealousy = abuse
The second one denounces jealousy as the inevitable aspect of a relationship that it is, they give up on the relationship. However, jealousy can also be the demise of a relationship. One can be jealous without being abusive verbally or physically. 
Jealousy gives reaction; it shows that the person is not one sided in the relationship.. It shows that they don't want to lose you. A negative reaction would be constant arguments or abusive actions which show that that person is toxic in your life anyway whether you are the victim or the abuser. No one should bring out such rage in you.  
Jealousy = flattery. It may truly be the sincerest form of flattery. To know that someone feels threatened by the mere thought of losing you is breathtaking. 
Jealousy = love when you fear for losing them because they're either a) not showing you jealousy back or b) exhibiting behavior that would lend one to jealous tendencies.
Jealousy is healthy in the sense that it pushes you to get to a point that you're no longer jealous; to a point where those you were once envious of are now in your shoes. 
My jealousy is out of pure Love. Maybe I'm jealous because he doesn't get jealous or because he doesn't have to or choose to be as inquisitive as I. Who knows, but any relationship worth having is going to have some level of jealousy. Regardless. 
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i sat in bed last night and typed this.  the words just seemed to flow right out of my head like it had been lingering on my chest for some time.  and it ultimately made me realize this, I AM A JEALOUS PERSON. and i am okay with that. 

a lot of men equate jealousy with femininity and then make it out to be a horrible aspect that they do not look for in a mate, YET, how would the pseudo masculine male that consumes our planet deal with a female that merely wants him but does not need him.   
THEY LOSE IT !! that's what happens.  
ladies, try using the gentleman/men in your life as toys.  you won't be able to stop your phone from ringing or the texts from incoming.  the thing is, MEN HATE TO BE IGNORED, they love to be needed and they love to be able to tell us "chill baby, fall back. you on my neck baby girl" thus causing them to deem us needy, THUS causing us to be jealous because now we feel as though we "need" him.  

it's all politics, and it's a shame.  

Thursday, November 4, 2010

Tuesday, October 26, 2010

STRESSED !!


i have never been so stressed and out of time as i have been this semester

my time management skills have hit an all time low,
 i barely find time to eat,
 my hair care regimen is allllll the way off schedule, i'm constantly doing things at the last minute, 
i'm up ALLLL hours of the freaking night 
i have nooooo time for myself EVER !!
i've been so concerned about what everybody else is doing and not concerned enough about LESLEY 

i'm going to a yoga class tomorrow to try and relax
i'm also going to go grocery shopping for breakfast foods so that i can pay better attention in class

i've gotta get my life back on track.. smh 


i'm talking to my mommy right now and she made me feel much better, she told me that i need to take time out for myself so that i can focus more on Lesley and get everything done that i need to get done.  

wish me luck..

EPIC


Diggy Simons x Willow Smith 

idk art but i know what i like



no particular reason for this post, i just came across this when i was surfing tumblr and i couldn't stop staring.  anywho, enjoy!

"instead, i rose from the ash like a Phoenix"

Kanye West debuted his new short film Runaway on MTV Saturday evening. i missed the beginning of the film but u can certainly bet that i found it online and watched the whole thing in its entirety!! 
i was nothing short of speechless
while watching the video i realized that the songs and scenes were all a part in Kanye's life that had impacted him in one way or another.  it isn't exactly in chronological order but i am a SERIOUS Kanye fanatic!! so i caught most of the imagery.  

the film opens up with Kanye frantically running from a fire in the distance.. i got this to symbolize him running from his past, his mother's death, the taylor swift incident, his break up with Alexis Fifer and amber Rose, his old style of music, and his old ways.  



as he drives up this long winding road (life) he gets hit with the Phoenix and rescues her




the Phoenix roams around in his backyard as if to be reborn



he shows her etiquette and coaxes her on how to be a civil person in society much like he had to coax himself and humble himself after the downfall of his career


the dinner scene, the man next to Kanye asks him if he notices that his girlfriend is a "bird" .. i took that as when he was dating Amber Rose and everybody kept calling her a video hoe and a whore like he didn't know about her past.  i thought that was an interesting tidbit in the film 


he then goes on to perform one of his latest hit singles Runaway Love with an epic ballet performance .. the song Runaway Love made me think about how he realized his mistakes and how he doesn't want to bring anyone down with him.  he wants "her" to runaway from him as fast as she can.  
he also adresses all of the "Douche bags" and "a**holes" that he surrounded himself with that he believed were his friends (people at the table)






this was a scene that went over my head until i watched it a few times.  the dinner begins after Kanye's performance and they're decorating the table with various different foods.  the main course was a turkey, which the Phoenix identified with as one of her own, she began screaming in terror and disgust and everyone left the table leaving Kanye with the screeching Phoenix and the dead bird.  
the dead bird represented his mother, the late Donda West and the Phoenix's screech was his 4th album 808s and Heartbreaks which, though it went gold, was his worst selling album.  the people running away from the table represented the masses that hated the album. thus leaving Kanye alone with his own thoughts and the reality of the death of his mother staring him in the face. 






















after the Phoenix and Kanye talk about the things that went on, she decides that in order for her to go back to normal, she must burn.  Kanye doesnt want her to go but he knows that she has to.  much like his career, he had to look inside of himself and decide that it was time for him to start over and rise from the ashes.  
after she burns it leaves the "new" Kanye West alone, risen from the ashes 


i thought that this concept was freaking GENIUS !! aside from the fact that i am in love with everything that Kanye does, he is truly an artist and a visionary.  he is an artist in every aspect of the word and i will be buying 4 copies of My Beautiful Dark Twisted Fantasy along with the other artists on his label G.O.O.D. Music that will be dropping their albums around the same time.  
i'm soooooo glad that Kanye is back and in full effect because i was really afraid for him.  

but i knew that this was going to happen, after the whole taylor swift nonsense threatened to ruin his career, he rose from the ashes just like a Phoenix.  

Sunday, October 17, 2010

SHEEEEESH !!

i just had one hell of a time trying to log into this dang thing !! everytime i would log in it would sign me into my old blog with my google account and ughhh, it was a headache.  anywho, back to the program.. gonna do a little construction and landscaping and be back with a better blog =D 

i want to explain why the blog is named as such, first.
i love love LOVE peacocks. LOVE THEM!! they are my favorite animal (next to giraffes) and i want a pet baby peacock that i will name Tyson.
i also have a large peacock feather tattooed on my left shoulder that i want to get a little bit brighter but i love nonetheless !!
over the last month or so, i've decided to start wearing my hair i its natural state.  my hair is a little bush of spiral curls and i want to learn to embrace them =]

this is a blog about things that i love and things that make me happy.  i've been really negative lately and i want to start doing the things that make ME happy and no one else.

with that said, enjoy my curly peacock. 

bbl 

Thursday, September 30, 2010

Nicole Minaj.


"besides, Ye, they can't stand besides me"




FYE

just a quick little FYE.. i have another blog which can serve as a quick little look into the sicker side of my mind, if you will.  it is a bit more private and not as frequent as i hope this one will be. but, nonetheless! check it out !!  
here are a few blogs that i check on the daily 

www.therealkesh.blogspot.com
www.kanyeuniversecity.com
www.lookbook.nu
www.fuckyeahtattoos.tumblr.com
www.missmeanshoe.com
www.wherdidugetthat.com 

no particular reason why i love these sites, they just capture my attention =]

enjoy !!

-Les

OOH! Girl, u got dat "GOOD" HAIR !!

soo, tonight, me and my Beee* (that's what i call my best friends because they're beyond just friends) sat in the living room and had a hair epiphany.  after much consideration, and "research" through Black Hair magazine, Beee* and i decided that we wanted to ditch society's idea of flat ironed beauty and opt for a more natural, thicker, healthier look.  

we decided that the only reason that we wear the long flowing weaves, and the straightened out hair is because we feel as though it is what is expected.  now, i cannot, and will not, speak for her, but this is how i feel...

my hair has more than defined me.  in other words, i'm not wearing the hair, the hair is wearing me.  i couldn't go a day without making sure my hair looked perfect; if my hair wasn't done, the outfit wasn't done.  most of the time, i'd had a premeditated hair style designated for each and EVERY outfit in my closet.  chunky sweaters got long and flowy, flirty crop tops got soft, bushy curls, "club" outfits got sleek and sexy; i was a ROBOT.  

i was not living. 

so a few weeks ago, i sat down and thought about why i do the things that i do (or the lack there of) to my hair.  my poor hair has been through it ALL !! color, weaves, a LOT of weaves, straightening, excess heat, i've even had a relaxer before.  and now that i am all natural, idk wtf to do with my hair!! my poor locks are STRESSED and it's getting to me (which would make sense since i held my hair to such high standards)  

here's a few pics of me throughout the past 5 months. . .






as you can see, i went THROUGH it !! 
i realized that i went through so many different style options because i've been surrounded and influenced by different people.  my boyfriend has hair CASCADING (yes, cascadinggggg) down his back in thick, healthy, natural dread locks.  my Beees* have either long relaxed hair or a long, luxurious weave.  i'm at a crossroads. i feel like if i'm not trying to au naturel myself just from being around him then i'm trying to glam the f*%# up because i'm surrounded by beyonce-esque beees* .. whatever the case may be, i need my own identity and i believe that it may start with my hair.  hair transformations can be very liberating for women and i believe that i am no different.. 
i am currently trying to go darker and all natural so i'll try and log my "hair journey" lol

so with that being said... 

wish me luck !!


and patience, because it is a virtue that i do not possess 


-Les!!